Family, the only thing I can tell you I feel right now is so confused. I don’t know why I have to leave, but they are telling me I have to. I love you all so much and I want to see you! But it is weird, at the same time, I really don’t want to leave the people I know and taught here. Last night, we had the departing missionary fireside, and I got to invite all the members and converts and investigators I taught my whole mission. I wanted it to last forever. But, I know it can’t be, and that is why I am so grateful that God has given me this mission, and I am so grateful for eternity, that there, as long as we are faithful, we can have that feeling last forever.
But really family, I love you so much and I am so excited to see you!!!!
“He that findeth his life shall lose it, and he that loseth his life for my sake shall find it."
I am so very grateful for the chance I had to serve. Coming out was the most important decision I ever made in my entire life. I am so very grateful for the Gospel of Jesus Christ and how it has now taught me what is important, and what is not. That happiness, true happiness only comes when we are turning outwards, thinking of others, and especially when we are thinking on how to help them come closer to Christ. I now know who I trust in, I cannot trust in the arm of flesh, but in Christ who is my Rock ( I think I am plagiarizing Nephi)
ahhh Guys, I know Christ lives with all my heart, I know we are ALL children of Heavenly Father, it’s such a little simple primary song, but that doctrine behind it is life changing, I have seen it. I know they love us. And it’s because they love us, that we can love at this capacity.
I don’t know if I shared this before but we were street contacting one day and I saw a mom and her daughter, we didn’t get a chance to stop them, but as I saw them across the way, my heart hurt so bad, I could feel what they could become, I knew that the restored gospel could bring them so much happiness, and I wanted it for them so bad. At that moment, I knew that feeling wasn’t coming from within, but it was the Love of Christ. Christ turned my heart of stone into a heart of flesh.
The Gospel is True, Christ, through his Prophets has told us every commandment, ordinance, and doctrine we need to follow to be happy here and in the next life. I can never forsake or deny his. It has been engraved onto my heart.
See you soon. I love you all so much!